Log 3

damn... i couldn't talk to her on college, and connect without credits didnt worked too :(
I wonder if she got mad cause that.... i wonder so much things lately now...
like, will she one day get back with me?
Is she better from her pains?
did ate?
will my parents fix their issues?
mom will accept dad back again?

I expect have my lovely Christina back, i miss her a lot, i will never have any other woman,
i just need her, i will never have any other woman. I will be forever her bf, or at least...
forever the person who loves her to death.

Log 2

Yesterday i could login on my phone without credits :)  i could talk to her, yeeey ^^ made me so happy talk to her, she seems better from the fever, im very glad, but we just spoke a bit... >.> and i think i will not be able to connect without credits again today, i already tried and didnt worked :/

I want to talk more to my beloved Nini :(

=(

I could login a bit on college but didn't saw her anywhere to even say a hi...

Since im without internet..i will be able just to try again tomorrow =(

Log

I don't know anymore what goes on her mind,
but seems she is trying in anyway to find some
kind of "clue" that proves her theory, that i dislike her,
that i don't care and don't love her, use anything i did, said or wrote
against me. Well, she can try to look for that, will not ever find,
i do love and treasure her a lot, even being separated from her and having
her angry look towards me, im just thinking about her, hoping she is fine and healthy,
her health is not good :(

I know i have my failures and defects, and i didnt meet her expectations that she had on
me about some things, but.. :(  is this necessary? doubt me...
Is true i said once, "im kind happy that we are separated" but i said it
cause i saw how much suffering i was causing to her and thought she wasnt
suffering anymore without me, but im not sure about this too anymore, besides
when we are emmotionally affected we say things that is not what we mean for true.
Im not ok being away from her, not a bit, im very empty.

Saying that doesnt need me for anything hurted, very much, more than anything
i ever heard from anyone. That thing "i was not ever going to forget even being happy
cause my heart was broken", it wasnt true, i forgot and got healed by staying with her.
Hope this happens again..if...we get..back... :(

I do hope so, i dont want have her as a enemy, have her as a person who hates me,
no >_< i dont even want to think about having her so mad at the point to hate me.
I do hope one day she sees that i trully love her and want her back,
and that she gets healthy again, im making her stressfull and this is
leading to a lot of her actual health problems cause this separation and
tries to find proffs that i dislike her which doesn't exist...

Im not healthy too, i mean..im never ok but i just get worse and worse everyday.
But she must come first in this cause im a hopeless situation when is about health ^^
I spent my last cell phone credit yesterday talking to her, with my internet cut all,
i know things are not a bit ok for my side cause that, i know she is mad, even
saying doesn't care, she does, she still cares to check my blog entries, even so
i know things are bad cause im off for a indetermined time.

Things didnt went as i planned, just wanted to cheer up a bit her...
I know im the last person to say that, but im not sure if there is someone helping her :(
Things went bad..she got angry :(

I want the things fixed between us, like the way they were when we started to date :(
My honey... i miss you sincerely

Bye

Lost her...
there is no need to continue this...
I will end all soon...
I wish that she doesnt forget me or the good momments we had.

Bye my heart, bye my love,

Bye my nini

Night

Goodnigth

"I love you, I love

Morning, noon and night

I love you, I love you

You make my world so bright"

Angel

Angels were not mean to be with us, poor humans...

Im glad i had meet and held a angel with me...

I just wish she didnt had go...

I will never feel warm ever again...

Só mais um dia...

Como odeio estar livre...  porque livre... na minha vida... é livre  de pessoas....amigos... sinceridade...ajuda...amor....

Mais um dia cujo o qual eu não terei que abrir a boca para falar
Mais um dia cujo não sorrirei, não ficarei feliz...
só mais um dia....


"Não preciso de você para mais nada"

Isso...vai me matar dentro de poucas horas.....
Não ouço mais nada além disso na cabeça....

Last page

There is nothing left...
There is no will...
No plans....
No smiles...
No friends...
No help...
No you...

Im seeing the emptyness again, the one I fought so hard to run away...
I got back here, this is my place I think...

"Relay on no one
Befriend no one
Love no one

Do as I say, I brought you here cause i wanted.
You are my soulless puppet and I shall play with you!"

Those were the words I used to hear on my head....
And they will echoe again...

Bye colors... bye my light...

My chapter ended here, there is no continuation, this is a last page with no ending

....

Por favor.... não vai...  por favor....por favor..

Cries

everyone is leaving me..... father...friends.... now the only person i needs.... trew me away......

i.. dont know what will be of me from now on......   

No heart....no love.....no soul...... harshness...selfish.....just flash and bones.... The old Diego is back....

.....

não acredito que ela me jogou fora......... é a mesma coisa de novo..... porque!!!!!!!!!
Eu sou uma merda mesmo........     PORQUE!!!!???

PORQUE ELA TEM QUE ME MATAR DESSE JEITO.......

Raiva

Eu presto para que?
Por que me importo?

Você não se importa, posso fazer o que se eu estou extremamente mal justo neste dia?
Amo você demais, mais não é reciproco no final das contas....

Te espero igual um cãozinho, quando você chega fico todo alegre, e você simplesmente
me da pauladas...

Sim, esqueci o dia, mas eu estou indo de mal a pior aqui e nem te digo nada para não
te encher com os meus problemas, não te preocupar, queria e quero sua compania,
mas você quer a minha?

Happy

Seriously..i can't describe how happy im now :')