SHIT SHIT!!!

WTF is wrong in my life?!
Im tired of being treated as a child, as a retarded, as the wrong one, as a devil, etc.

Since the start of this year i just heard bad things, comments comming from people i though
would support me, be there when i need, etc.

Father basically negleted me as his son since his gf actually didnt knew that i was blood related to him.
Gf = "we are completely the opossite of each other in everything", today got mad and as i think, sad and trew herself on the poems, that more than one im the central theme and im always the devil, the one who destroyed her soul, etc.

Gosh, this kills me and get me sad and mad.
She seems like can break apart like glass if i say anything.

I just said that will not understand cause you matured too fast, and i not.

So what? Is true, and you know it is, you called me childish more than once.

And i sincerally hope you look to this: Were just spoken about how i like and learned things about a anime, and you cant understand how, since you see as childish thing, trew at my face that event that happened to you and wrote lots of poems and in the last saying to break our bond?!

Stop that, I DO NOT UNDERSTAND this event happened to you, i will never know,  there is many
things i do not understand about you, and will live forever without knowing.
You dont trust me, you dont like to listen me, i have to swallow my pride to not let things get bad.
I have a deep fear of anything i say to you that might break you apart.
I said one thing about a anime and you broke apart today....

DAMN!!

I know what you gonna say now, "so why with me? there is better things, dont need be with me"
I need to, but i dont know anymore if you need me.

Why things must be like this? Say?