Nights

My nights are definitively worser than my whole day.
I don't sleep anymore, skin goes wild, I have a huge burden on my chest, I feel it empty, I have one million of thoughts. Just driking makes me feel a bit easier, and I'm very aware that it is another issue covering another issue that I will have to deal with soon.

I lost that feeling that I had someone by my side, but sincerally, when did I had?
I deal with all alone since always, I'm the sad strong lone wolf type, I never tell how I really feel to anyone so they don't see my weak side and can rely on me more, the few ones I did told, they abused me or took all they wanted from me like Angelica, Paulo, Michelle and others...

I'm a loyal fool with no one by my side anymore.
Everyone had what they wanted from me, I'm not necessary anymore.
This includes my parents.