Oh great....

The great news came just now, father is leaving home cause he couldn't bear of what he did last saturday,
he cheated my mother with another woman, went to a motel and etc....
and has 2 months he is going out with her...

I never expected that from him..we really are different....
This family was ruining, but the last crack was made by him...so low..... never expected that

Another day

Today's news:

• My internet was cut by some hours without reason, when i got back from college it got fixed.

• My College's Conclusion Project is 45% done ^^  50% is programming codes and other 50% is documentation of the coding, so we are almost done. =D

• I tried to ammend things with the person I treasure most in this life....we fought....I didn't wanted this, if I could go back in time a month, just a month, I would fix everything.... I hope we....  v.v ....don't wanna think about it, all will be ok again... :'(

• After a week and half i could login again on Nintendo WFC, seriously...why so long?? D:

• Im with head aches from looking at programming codes.

Don't say goodbye

I had to post this her

Mental talk

What? What is the problem? Whats wrong?
I can't study anymore, I can't go anywhere, I can't even talk to everyone
I know, I can't have work to do and yet im the wrong one?
What's her problem? I love her so much, but i cant be 100% of my time
talking to her, I wish I could, but I can't, we live far away, which implies I
can't give calls to her house or cell phone to give news, can't knock on her
door to visit and say that Im there, all I can is send some mails, write this blog
or talk on messenger, and all of those last 3 needs to be using a computer, which Im not
all day in front of it...
Why she can't be more comprehensive? She does lots of things I dont like any bit,
like intentionally lie and hide things from me, get hit by the guys like once in week, 
Im glad this didn't happened lately, that drifting thing, i think is cool and nice, etc, but
who doesn't know someone who died doing drifting? any other type of racing is not
like this, i really worry with this crazy emotionally affected woman, she is the love of my life
but i seem not to be even cared as a friend...


btw, i know you will be reading this, as you do to me, i ask to you, dont comment or talk about
this posts anymore

Bad day

Didn't waked ok, my skin is very painful today, especially on my face,
shirt and bermuda hurts too whenever they touch my body T^T
I feel not confortable, wanna hide, go to somewhere, where my ugly
and scarefull existance doesn't scary other people, somewhere i
can't feel anymore pain...

After showdown

Hey, im back in home, the presentation was a breeze :)
The other people presentations was nice and funny xD ahhahahah
Sell glitter :P
Camel shoes
Memory injections
etc

We had a video class too, we saw parts of a movie and had to talk about it

And the best of all:  ABSOLUTELY NO HOMEWORK!!!!!!!!!!!! =D
YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

Showdown

In a few minutes i will go to my english course and will be the time to show my presentation
wish me luck ^^b

ahhh btw, some friends asked me why my posts are in a wrong time ..
i never noticed o.O
i checked and dicovered that there is a timezone option, which was -8hours :O  im just in -3Hours
now time should be fixed ^^, hope my other posts fixes the time v.v

Homeworks

Homeworks, homeworks and more homeworks.... DAMN!
The english course is annoying me with so many homeworks,
I finished now the slides for the presentation, what I will talk
in the presentation...neighter God knows...but i can handle
that with the precious teaching that my Senac's teacher teached me:
"Talk what you know, give details about it, talk polish but talk as you
were explaining to your friend" with this I can pass it with no problem
but still there is the 2 pages of exercises to do to finish and i have no idea
of what to do in them...  The exercises aren't that much self-explanatory...
I may be busy all day today...


Ahhh btw, if you had never listened to any of those musics, no matter from where
you are, you had no childhood!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W_rlwKoXpCo

Necessary

Well, i have nothing much to share today, i just felt in mood to post anything
but my day wasnt that boring, i had to do some stuff: saturday english classes....
My gosh...how could teacher made us sing ramdom musics O/////////O she surprised us
with Mariah Carey... Village People...Lady Gaga...WTF 
I said to her next time i chose the musics!!!!

She gave us too lots of stuff as homework:  4 Pages of lesson in the book, more 3 in the
notes and a oral presentation about some "imaginary product" 5 minutes non stop at least....


Started to do a deep cold wheater and rain after the end of class... I called
my mother to take me there by car, and guess what? -.-
We found in the way my mom's computer teacher going to her english class too,
im glad we study in different time  and schools :P, and she dared to ask the girl to come
our house aftrer her class DX  Mom is trying to get me to date that girl!!!
Go to hell, i already have my  GF, i dont need some random unknow weird girl >O<

Thoughts

No good classes at all
No good computer to use
PC viruses like stars on the sky
Pains and ominous feelings
Lies, sorrow and hate
Pressure
Lonely
Sad
Worried

Ominous feeling...

Damn...what is this?  Something very wrong and bad is about to happen,
I dont have this feeling for years....why it came back?
Why those things started to happen again?
Am I starting to have back my "skills"?
What is this mark on my left arm? There is something inside? Why it pains so much? It wasn't there till 1:36am
Why i dont remember getting my sleep....just remember being awake, seeing the clock
was 1:36am, having a thought then suddenly all went black and lightned again,
I was awake looking to the ceiling, don't remembering even when I awake and the clock was showing
5am exactly?

Damn...what's wrong, am I paranoic now?

I need do something, i need help......but myself or someone else?
Why i keep writing why?

I need relax...i need calm down....i must be my best for her, but.....something is happening, must be, but I dont believe is happening....At same time im looking fine, im not feeling fine.

I hope she doesn't talk about this, doesn't read too...
what is happening to me? 

Paranoic feelings
Ominous feelings

Some news

Hi folks, is time for some other news ^_^
I started to take english classes on saturday at 11am till 2pm in the school "Skill"
It was funy and cool, the people there just talks in english for anything *3* is like i went
to some other country hihihihi

I finally finished the most awaited game ever Duke Nukem Forever,
"-Was the game any good?
 - Yes, after 12 fucking years, it should be!"
One of the lines inside  the game and i agree, it was so good that im about to start all over again :P

Im worried with my girlfriend, she is going through some bad things...and she wont tell me what is happening v.v  ..well is my fault...i made her lose the trust in me...im very glad that at least she accepted me back and still loves me...i love her so much ...im thankful to her for everything she did everyday...im worried with you honey... *teary puppy eyes*

Dad is annoying me, like always: "Get a job! *^*"   he says like im not even trying to look for something.....i send curriculums....check online websites...and some "job houses" near college...

3rd week of classes on college and i literally did nothing, and is not cause i want to do nothing there, the teachers (some) doesnt give us anything to do and other just have no condition to give us anything cause the computer labs are full of broken/non-working or pre-historic computers....some computers has less than 256mb of Ram....nowdays is hard to find to sell less than 1GB
I just get some theories, but this is not enough to learn since Information Techonology (I.T.)/System and Data Analysing  needs to have working and good computers to study >.>
i will finish college in 4 months and im worried i may be not had enough study or qualification....

OMG @_@  Google bought Motorola.... Google made Google+ to beat, and is almost ready to beat, Facebook.... They are taking over the world :O !!!  december 21 2012 is near!!!!!

Cold day

Today is such a cold day ....
I hate cold days, no good cames from it for me
Im trembling now >.<
Got a bit late from college today, i was checking for some english school,
I need have some advanced classes and get a diplome,
now my free time will be shorter, i hope i can take those classes right after college
so I can still talk to my beloved friends

Btw, Jessica (again) dont want talk to me, =-= she will never grow or
will just get better in the day i get a clone and she owns that clone...
Seriously, I cant have a good talk anymore, so ok, be it, let's not talk,
I hate moody people, "im so hyper today ^^"  30 minutes later "dont ever talk to me"

=-=

 

A dying Sun...

Lately is being so empty,
So different,
One day i were complete?

I try desperately to hold on something,
Hold myself on you,
You, the one who complete me,
The one who can save me...


Why things must be like this?
Why i can't be loved?
Why i need to be this alone?
Why i feel this for you?

I always lived alone,
With anger and sorrow in heart,
Hidden deep inside,
Cause none loved me
Cause none can see a sad Sun
None saw who i really was
or how i felt...

It never bored me...
Cause I always were alone in this space,
Being used to get my warm,
Getting nothing in return,
Was my reality


Now im about to explode,
About to succumb,
There is nothing more beautiful to see
in this universe than
A dying Sun...
It use all it's power
To shine and warm till the end
The ones that are near,
But what is left of it, is just
It's memory...
Of one day, he was there,
Warming you with a big smile

Another new day... another (long) story

Humm..i have stuff to talk about it today, but first of all... why the hell i put tree/four dots after lots of my sentences =-= ...  neighter i know...turned into a mania...

So, Lets start with the beggining, very beggining, 5:45am, i waked with dad doing noises to get ready to work, damn, was too cold at that time, maybe around 6ºC, im glad i was with 3 blankets whole night; by the way, i didnt liked to have to get up, it was so warm... just by putting my feet on ground i froze, and outside house wasn't that warm too...

Ok, bus was full, crowded, college is far away in town, i get there as a orang after being used to do a juic...and i get the good news that i will not have class again as i did since beggining of week, i must go cause they say the next day will have class, and today i cant just go back home, i must stay 3 hours there cause i have to go to my oftalmologist, which is very near college, but closed at that time.
-What to do???
-Ahhhh i know :) Fool around with Luis ^^b

Im glad luis is very similar to me, get early on college and goes there whenever happens and is a nice guy, love you my buddy ^^b my best friend in years

So, we went out to see some random stuff, but damn..lots of places were closed, they were just going to open in 40 minutes .... was 8:20...

We went in direction of the commrcial street, my beloved Oliveira Lima avenue *3*, anything i want is there, especially gadgets and eletronic junk, which is what Luis loves too heheheh, we checked all of the stores, lots were closed, some were open, and in the ones were open, we did stuff like: check prices, buy a new tv controller to Luis, watch a bit of a 3D movie with 3D glasses inside the store's 35" 3D TV  heheheh :P    who could know that the lady would give me the glasses and start the movie after i said: "hey, my buddy and i can see how is a 3D movie in this 3D TV?"

Lol, was funny ^^  how much thinnier the Tvs can get?? They were at size of my finger in espessure o.O ...after a few minutes, we went to the other side of street to check a new Fashion store, it is pretty inside, i was very tired of walking o i went to the lounge of it to rest, some weird functionary looked at me as i were going to  steal something just cause i was with a bag on my back *^*  ... i left that filthy place in direction of the bus stop, said to Luis that i was going straight to the doc and he stayed there to take the bus
-Bye Luis, see you monday *waves*

Did my way to the doctor, it was on the time i should get my examination 11am...but just got attended at 11:45am *^* ...meanie, at least i had my Nintendo DS on my pocket to pass the time
Doctor said my eye is fine and started to take off my surgery dots again... that thing hurt ... he uses needdles to remove them...i still seeing blurry form the anhestesic he put on my eye to remove them...

Went home after that, mom didn't worked today, so pretty much was done here in home...im glad ^^"
Just changed clothes and had my lunch, washed the dishes then went to my room and turned on computer to check for messages, pms, posts,etc..mostly from someone in special, i dind't saw anything, i turned off it then went on a Language school here neear home to chck if they have space for more one ^^" me :P  i ned a diplome saying i know english..nowdays..this paper means more than you showing you know english personally...even if had learned by yourself...  no deal, no class was made....i need check somewhere else =-=

I went back in home and started to play some games on computer, nothing much to do, i stopped to play to take a shower and use my creams and ointments on skin, it isn't as good as it should be :/
I turned on computer again then i checked messenger and she was online =) then i said a "hii" and she replied ^^  im really happy that she started to talk to me again, it really meants so much, even if we are dont really talking for now, at least i know i can get in touch with her and she will reply me :)

Thats it for now, and one more thing reader: my keyboard is going through some issues, i press the key and it is not registering it, so, if you see any weird word as it were missing a word, dont blame me, i wrote it rightly, but it wasnt registered and i didn't noticed it as you saw it