Ominous feeling...

Damn...what is this?  Something very wrong and bad is about to happen,
I dont have this feeling for years....why it came back?
Why those things started to happen again?
Am I starting to have back my "skills"?
What is this mark on my left arm? There is something inside? Why it pains so much? It wasn't there till 1:36am
Why i dont remember getting my sleep....just remember being awake, seeing the clock
was 1:36am, having a thought then suddenly all went black and lightned again,
I was awake looking to the ceiling, don't remembering even when I awake and the clock was showing
5am exactly?

Damn...what's wrong, am I paranoic now?

I need do something, i need help......but myself or someone else?
Why i keep writing why?

I need relax...i need calm down....i must be my best for her, but.....something is happening, must be, but I dont believe is happening....At same time im looking fine, im not feeling fine.

I hope she doesn't talk about this, doesn't read too...
what is happening to me? 

Paranoic feelings
Ominous feelings