Personal Talk

Which kind of boyfriend am i?
Which kind of relationship is this?

Things are just complicated and more complicated between us, i feel that everyday we are more apart,
and im such dumbass...always saying or doing something to hurt her.... she doesnt need that, she has
enough problems so i cant turn into one more...but seems im :'(

She trusts me less and less, tells me almost nothing about what she did, feelings or whatever is happening.
I trust her all...all she asks i tell and do and even more sometimes, is not enough?

Why she is so complicated?
Why im such jerk?

Those aswears lies within each one of us, i dont want hurt her more, i love her very much, but seems
im blind by this love and im hurting her :'(  Im starting to hate love, im completely over her, desperate to
have her in my arms, feeling hurt, a complete idiot, guilty for all said and did wrong, happy for having her
as my girfriend, blind for her to the point to not even cumpliment other womans and have dreams of us together... In short, i feel love, hate, sadness, happyness all same time and im dying cause of it...

No matter the bad points in this relationship, and down moments, all i want is her and her love... i cant live without it, cant live without her, hope i didnt ruined things this time :'(
All i do is cry cause of what happened, waited all day like a dog for her and the day ended with her mad, sad and "god knows more what" with me and the things that happened to her.