Reflexion

Im so worried with her, so worried of losing her, worried of the things that happened lately...
Worried with many things. but mostly in how is going my relationship with her

Yet i hear clearly the words coming from her, as coming from me "i love you"... i can hear a faint sound coming from the back saying "you hurt her" "you are bad to me" "why you do that?" "why dont you undertsand?" "dont leave me" "dont hurt me" ...

Gosh...is so hard to feel in love, so painful, but she, she is worth of any pain, any sacrifice...
I dont give up on her, i hope she never gives up on me..i hope.... she didnt gave up already...

I have so much plans for us, i wanna spend my time and feelings with her, being faithful and trustful, im already all of that, im sure of that, i see that but is my truth the real thing, am i showing that? Is she seeing that?
How can i proper show to her?  Am i a bother? my friends are?

I do hope things get better son, i do hope she gets better son, she cant hide from me that she is depressed, but hides very well of what and why she is depressed...

The worst of all is knowing that im sure, im guilty of part of her sorrow... this kills me... the one i should protect, im hurting... i wanna see a light on this darkness to light up her path, so she can see how good and
beauty is the things ahead of her, i dont mind being in darkness, or even alone, gosh, im alone since i born.
She is the first real company i have, must be cause that i hurt her... i still dont know how to deal correctly with people, specially the one i love. I wanna learn how to deal, how to care, i wanna be better and better, she cant leave me... i dont want to, she doesnt want to... but things just seems to go toward this path...

"Your smile is so resplendent

That made my heart happy

Hold my hand for we get out from this terrible darkness

Since the day i meet you,

I remember of that beautiful place

Which in my infant was special to me

I wanna know, if with me you should dance

If you give me the hand i will take you

Through a path full of darkness and light

Maybe you can not notice

But my heart is all over you

Because it needs, someone to show it

the love you can give it

My happy heart beats

By a universe of hope

Hold my hand, the magic await us

I will love you for all my life

Come with me by this way

Hold my hand for we get out from this terrible darkness"

No matter how i look things, this explains all that i want now, that i feel, what i see when i think on you...

Take my hand... lets get out of this deep darkness honey