Mental talk

What? What is the problem? Whats wrong?
I can't study anymore, I can't go anywhere, I can't even talk to everyone
I know, I can't have work to do and yet im the wrong one?
What's her problem? I love her so much, but i cant be 100% of my time
talking to her, I wish I could, but I can't, we live far away, which implies I
can't give calls to her house or cell phone to give news, can't knock on her
door to visit and say that Im there, all I can is send some mails, write this blog
or talk on messenger, and all of those last 3 needs to be using a computer, which Im not
all day in front of it...
Why she can't be more comprehensive? She does lots of things I dont like any bit,
like intentionally lie and hide things from me, get hit by the guys like once in week, 
Im glad this didn't happened lately, that drifting thing, i think is cool and nice, etc, but
who doesn't know someone who died doing drifting? any other type of racing is not
like this, i really worry with this crazy emotionally affected woman, she is the love of my life
but i seem not to be even cared as a friend...


btw, i know you will be reading this, as you do to me, i ask to you, dont comment or talk about
this posts anymore